My Emotional Rant

I am well aware that I am an emotional person. I tend to painfully scrape the lining of my heart just so I can understand what I feel and in my current situation, not to do it again.

So, that said...I have determined God is leading me to Albuquerque. And I believe he's told me he wants to use me to bring my girls to him. But lately, I've entertained the possibility that perhaps this move is for me. That God sees tragedy for me ahead and because he loves me, he wants me to be surrounded by people who love me...as I lay dying of some dreaded disease...or whatever.

Of course, I know fear is the opposite of faith. And I also know that into every life a little rain must fall. As the time for me to leave draws nearer, I find that I'm a lot more emotional. (If that's even possible.) And right on the edge of panic at this big move and change in my life. This step is more than a geographical move for me. I'm anxious to get it over with and for the next year or so to go by quickly so my heart will have healed some.

(Just F.Y.I. For those of you who don't know me well, I'm not a huge drama queen and I don't take myself too seriously. I know I can be over-dramatic, over-emotional and a bit of a hypochondriac at times. Although, I'm coming out of that last one some. So, just roll your eyes and read on. I'll eventually make my point.)

My Random Book of Devotions this morning referenced Deuteronomy 18:18.

I will raise up a Prophet from among their brethren, like unto thee, and will put

my words in his mouth; and he shall speak unto them all that I shall command

him.

This prophecy came to the Israelites as they arrived at the Promised Land, before they entered.

They knew that Moses was not to be their leader any longer and that God was going to appoint another. But this prophecy was about Jesus.

It was before the nation of Israel was formed, before David was king, before the exile and return of the Jews from their land. God knows the future. He knew all that Israel would go through before the Messiah came or before he comes again.

Psalm 16:11 says

Thou wilt shew me the path of life; in thy presence is fullness of joy; at thy right

hand there are pleasures for evermore.

And 27:1

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength

of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?

Oh,what wonderful promises! I can be assured that God loves me and goes before me in all situations. I don't know what tomorrow, or next month, or next year will bring. But I do know in His presence joy awaits me. I know that because I'm HIS, I don't need to fear anyone or anything.

Father, thank you for your loving care. It's enough that you see my tomorrows. The good and the bad. I know that you have promised to deliver me from ALL afflictions (Ps. 34:19). Today, Lord, I again hand over my fears of tomorrow and the losses or failures of yesterday. I praise you for the joy you've put in my heart. And I thank you for reminding me that somehow my story is a part of your plan.